My end.

My editor sent me the notes on my book. This was a happy and sad moment. I wasn't sure if her having it so long was a good sign or a bad one. Just so you all know, it was a bad sign. 
I think some little part of me really wanted her to say "This is the best thing I have ever read!"  On one hand if she said that I could puff up my head and think "Damn I'm good", but on the other hand, if she had said that I would also think "Liar, you never read it".  
This is a lot of mixed emotions here, so please stay with me... 
As you may have already figured out, she did not say "This is the best thing I have ever read!"
She said, and this is a direct quote, "I was loving Rea, loving Karma, loving the story line and then--you ripped out my guts, my heart, my brain, left me on the road dead and 10 cars ran over my still barely alive remains. "
Now, in the Army I have been called a lot of names and had people who hated me. I have also faced quite a few harsh comments, but this has now become my new favorite. It has a creativity to it that you just don't really hear anymore. 
Her comment made me laugh, but it also showed me that I have such a long way to go. 
The writing process is such a roller coaster ride. I will admit that sometimes I want to scream "Let me off this ride before I throw up" but other times I am yelling " HELL YEAH!!!"
If you want to know how I ripped out all her organs, it was the end of my book. The end is shit so I have to re-write it. 
I have to work on that...like right now. So, talk among yourselves, I'll be back later.